Thoughtful...

Of late I have been plagued a lot with feelings of incompetence, desperation and restlessness. I get bothered by thoughts like

- am I a good mother (can I handle my child well and bring her up well all by myself without depending much on my parents and spouse as I do now)
- am I a good wife (why is it that my house is always messy, things disorganised and handling of home related matter haphazard? Why is it that there is no guarantee that I can cook even a half decent meal?)
- am I a good professional (do I address all my developments needs well and on time? how visible am I in office as a capable professional? why do I get ruffled and troubled easily?)

And needless to say, I am forever seeking solutions.

And incidentally, I happened to have stumbled upon a solution. It is no magic potion, but to me at least seems to be a silver lining.

As I explore the possibilities of utilising it and benefitting from it, I am keeping my fingers crossed. Hope the beacon of light doesn't fade away, hope my wishes dont vanish in a whiff of smoke... hoping and hoping...

BFN!